Lyrics

saw you on the train / buttoning your coat / got an open book / edges painted gold / how you pass another page / always on your way / you haven’t changed / I’m still here I seen them all come and go / I’m still here I walked these streets as a young boy / I’m still here I drove these roads with my eyes closed / I’m still here I’ll watch you all come and go / we never lock our doors / never get away / we live a golden hour of a golden age / there are those who go / there are those who stay / you cannot have it both ways / I’m still here I seen them all come and go / I’m still here I walked these streets as a young boy / I’m still here I drove these roads with my eyes closed / I’m still here I’ll watch you all come and go / I’ve forgotten now what I came to talk about / I remember how every memory’s slippery now / stronger than skin and bone / time will distill you down / what are you made of / what are you made of / we will all find out / what you’re made of / what you’re made of / I’m still here I seen them all come and go / I’m still here I walked these streets as a young boy / I’m still here I drove these roads with my eyes closed / I’m still here I’ll watch you all come and go

he brought me to a firing range to stand on the good side of a gun / he knows better than to give me an ultimatum / he shoots trouble before it can run / he brought me to the county fair / held me so tight on that ride / he knows better than to let me out of his sight / he shoots trouble before it can run / run run run / we will say brave words to each other / tempt fate with our plans / play house together / a woman takes this man / when something else caught my eye / he didn’t seem to see / two weeks later over by the white pines / he dropped onto his knee / he shoots trouble / as the sun dissolves to night / my eyes ache at horizons / he tells me of a trip we’ll take / promising i’ll be right beside him / he shoots trouble / we will say brave words to each other / tempt fate with our plans / play house together / a woman takes this man / run run run / he brought me to a firing range to stand on the good side of a gun

southern man in a northern land / you know where to put your hands when we dance / call me darlin / you’re a hard man to understand / southern man / swing me ‘round to an old time band / hold me close with two strong hands / all my plans don’t mean nothing / you’re a hard man to withstand / southern man / working man with calloused hands / gentler than a gentleman / hold me tight / the world is put right / you’re a good man to stand by / man of mine / I can let my hair down / southern man in a northern land / you know where to put your hands when we dance / hold me so tight / you’re a good man to stand by / man of mine

whiskey-throated daughter reaching for the water / mouth like a dust bowl eyes full of sharp stones / i’m too young to be this old / where did my time go / your sugar coated words sounded rehearsed / but if I have another one just one poetry will come / I’m too old to be this young / can’t remember all the fun must have had some / I drank more than I meant to / it’s too late for thinking straight / didn’t mean to lead you where I led you / cheap wine underlines every mistake / I’m too old to be this young / I’m too old to be this young / I’m too old to be this young / what the hell have I done / Never again / never again / poor me / pour me another one

I like getting lost / I’ll keep wandering off / how I love an open road / gonna get outta dodge / every chance I’ve got / you know how I long to go / you’re the thorn in my traveling bone / you make it so hard to go / I don’t mind kicking back / I’ll throw my feet up and relax / cozy up let time mosey by / but I just can’t unfix my gaze / from that always drifting place / where land touches sky / you’re the stone in this old suitcase / you make me want to stay / when every road starts to look the same / and faces blend with normal names / and all I crave is that one and I could watch the lines grow on his face / you’re the stone in this old suitcase / you make it so hard to go away / you’re the thorn in my traveling bone / there’s nothing quite like coming home

every day I wake up and the sun fades your face from my eyes / I try to keep them shut but you still go no matter how tight I keep them closed / you still go / I keep them closed but you still go / every day I wake up with fingernail lines in my palms / I guess that’s where I hold you / tight in my fists all night long / I hold on tight but you’re still gone / hold on tight but you’re still gone / so I’m gonna dream this time away til I see you again / this world’s too heavy for my head to hold all alone / every day I wake up moves me one more day closer to you / the last breath of your face is the first thing I see when I come to / I’ll keep dreaming til I dream you home / I’ll dream you home / I’m gonna dream this time away til I see you again / this world’s too heavy for my head to hold all alone / I’ll keep dreaming til I dream you home / I’ll dream you home / every day I wake up and the sun fades your face from my eyes / I try to keep them shut but you still go no matter how tight I keep them closed / you still go / I keep them closed and you won’t go

do not stand at my grave and weep / I’m not there / I do not sleep / I’m a thousand winds that blow / I’m the diamond glints on snow / the sunlight on ripened grain / the gentle autumn rain / when you awaken in the morning’s hush / I’m the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds in circled flight / I’m the soft stars shining at night / do not stand at my grave and cry / I’m not there, I did not die.

my lungs are full of diesel fumes / my heart is full of missing you / tried to go to the roof to get closer to the sky / so tired I can’t sleep I’m separating stars from city lights / but my little home is not as high as these other buildings / I heard they’re supposed to scrape the sky but I think they’re missing / I’m missing a place there’s no replacing / where she’s listening to crickets sing / I can only hear this TV humming / it’s dark in VT tonight / too bright in this fake light / gonna drive all night leave the concrete in my dust / gonna cool my feet in mountain streams til I’ve had enough / take a long run sweat the city out of my blood / the water runs its race so fast and hard / just to end up right back where it started / the harder I try to hold / the faster it goes / I’ve been breathing out more than I’ve been breathing in / gonna head straight home til I find myself a second wind / I thought by now I’d have a little more figured out / had a mouthful of wisdom once but someone pulled it out / so I’m going back / hide and seek until I find it / my lungs are full of diesel fumes / my heart is full of missing you

talking with our fingers through glowing screens / how we hide from what we mean / all these timelines on my face / it takes so much it takes / there must have been a mistake / I am not who I meant to be / to dos and sticky notes piled by my car keys / I’ve remembered where to go / forgotten how to know / I see through you / blue wires below pale skin / always connected always plugged in / we spend it all tied to tight deadlines / staring at fake hayfields and electric skies / there must have been a mistake / I am not who I meant to be / to dos and sticky notes piled by my car keys / I’ve remembered where to go / it seems harder to be happy than it used to be / hands are exclamation points / stretching to a blinding void / pulling taut on tired arms / can you see the sparks / won’t let go / can’t let go for anything / so much harder to be happy than it used to be / on our way to cubicles / to buzz around the honeycomb / to earn the time to lie in sugar beds / there must have been a mistake / I am not who I meant to be / to dos and sticky notes piled by my car keys / I’ve remembered where to go

black suit / sharp shoes / you put salt on everything / they ring for you the bells ring / Black noose / pulled loose / certain whispered words at night / do not hold up to the light / you take all of the credit and none of the blame / you take all you want it will never be the same / the blackest numbers / the whitest lies / you walk a crooked timeline / you smell like taxi and sharp cologne / you know where the time goes / you take all the credit / none of the blame /take all you want it will never be the same / you touched my skin / poured poison in my ear / said nothing personal / you take all the credit/none of the blame / take all the pleasure none of the pain / businessman / it’s nothing personal

nothing tastes like sugar it’s all sweet and low / nothing drinks like lemonade / nothing skips like stone / nothing runs like water when your one true love is gone / every day that comes along has a silver medal on / nothing soars like falcons it’s all paper planes / nothing stings like thistles and nothing floods like rain / nothing roars like fire when you’re standing on your own / no shelter from the coming storm will ever feel like home / nothing’s cut like diamond it’s all shades of coal / nothing breaks like tidal waves nothing mends like bone / nothing tastes like sugar when your love can ne’er return / how to feel with half your heart is the toughest thing to learn

Written by Peter Bradley Adams and Caitlin Canty – when I die let the wolves enjoy my bones / when I die let me go / when I die you can push me out to sea / when I die set me free / when I die let the sharks come round to feed / when I die set me free / oh the world is dark and I’ve looked as far as I can see / when the years have torn me apart / let me be / when I die let the flames devour me / when I die set me free / when I die throw my ashes to the breeze / when I die scatter me / oh the world is dark and I’ve looked as far as I can see / when the years have torn me apart / let me be / daylight is waiting for you

Written by Peter Bradley Adams and Caitlin Canty – Lazy snow the sky is falling and it’s beautiful / Lazy snow the streets are silent and it’s beautiful / warm and white let it fall on you / a quiet light let it shine on you / Lazy snow the town is hiding and it’s beautiful / Lazy snow the ground is rising and it’s beautiful / warm and white let it fall on you / a quiet light let it shine on you

Written by Peter Bradley Adams and Caitlin Canty – Oh brother I’m tired / my courage gone away / my gun it won’t fire / and my legs can’t bear this weight / I want to run far / so far from this place / where the grass grows tall / I can hide beneath the blades / put me out to pasture / I don’t want to live on this battlefield no more / put me out to pasture / I don’t want to live on this battlefield / oh brother I tried / I can’t see it anymore / now I forget why / oh who am I fighting for / I want to lie down / my memory erased / upon the soft ground / I can feel its warm embrace / remember sun upon your face / when silent winds pushed across the plains / how long must I wait / put me out to pasture

Written by Peter Bradley Adams and Caitlin Canty – Have I gone and failed you / have I gone and let you down / have I loved / have I not been gracious / were my hands not strong enough / have I lost my patience / have I loved / everything I own owns me now / everyone I love holds me down / were my plans too heavy / did I hold you long enough / did I not seem ready / have you had to rise above / everything I own owns me now / everyone I love holds me down / have I left things broken / did I not speak loud enough / were there words unspoken / have I loved

Written by Peter Bradley Adams and Caitlin Canty – Headlights staring down the road ahead / you’re silent beside me I don’t want to ask / last night I couldn’t help the things I said / you kept your distance painting on another mask / hard times knocking at our door again / just can’t fight it, forgotten how to run / cold hands like a stranger’s on your skin / can’t sleep beside you so I rise before the sun / where can we go from here / where can we go / we keep trying to get back to Idaho / old songs keep us dancing round the room / stuck in circles nothing new to say / how long can one heart beat so confused / we can’t stay here waiting on another day / where can we go from here / where can we go / we keep trying to get back to Idaho

Written by Peter Bradley Adams and Caitlin Canty – I’m old not broken / leaning heavy on hope and I’m hoping / I can always close my eyes to see / I’m tired not sleeping / there’s a vigil each night I’m keeping / and the sun must rise for my eyes to sleep / any day it could break / any day I’ll be beautiful / I’ll wait for the day when I make it through / I’m cold not frozen / many miles to keep and they’re growing / but I’ll drive them off til I find my way / any day it could break / any day I’ll be beautiful / I’ll wait for the day when I make it through / I’m torn not tattered / all the choices I’ve made they don’t matter / I’ll be on this road at the end of the day

rusty halo / heavy halo fell down from his head / now it hangs like a gold chain on his chest / I don’t wear anything around my neck / heavy halo / novice angel / don’t you smile at me with that cracked farm-boy grin / but now that i think about it any guardian angel of mine has to be missing some teeth / I don’t need saving / I don’t need you to save me / I don’t need something to believe just to get me to sleep / housepainter’s daughter grew up under the ladder / but the road keeps turning in her favor / a good hand can be tough to come by / luck will follow her home like the moon on a long drive / I don’t need saving I don’t need you to save me / I don’t need something to believe just to get me to sleep / I don’t want to sleep / don’t give me peace of mind / what a boring time that would be / Rusty Nail / novice angel / drink on down that holy wine / these drunken eyes see the fake gold flaking off falling off breaking down / I don’t need something to believe just to get me to sleep / I don’t want to sleep / don’t give me peace of mind / what a boring time that would be

the moon is competing with orange street lights and I can’t see the stars / I’d rather be walking home on neon streets than walking home in the dark / it’s not fire until it’s lapping at my door / it’s not hunger until it’s burning in me / I’m always competing with the firehouse across the street / trucks come out screaming and they don’t care if they’re interrupting me and my singing / it’s all about me / it’s not fire until it’s lapping at my door / it’s not hunger until it’s burning in me / a bleeding heart can bleed dry with so many sirens crying every night / birds are competing with my neighbor’s TV / I can’t hear myself think / I’d rather be singing in city cacophony than sitting here silently on my Poor Man’s Balcony with no fire to escape no fire / it’s not fire until it’s lapping at my door / it’s not hunger until it’s burning in me / a bleeding heart can bleed dry with so many sirens crying every night

you are floating off at the water’s whim / you’ve forgotten how to sail / forgotten how to swim / you’re the seagull / wind in her wings / riding updrafts but not flying / you know about stars but you don’t know how to use them / you know about ropes but you don’t know how to move them / you know about dreams but you don’t know how to prove them / you don’t know which way you want the wind to blow / you’ve read all the books / studied all the guides / sharpened every tool / practiced every line / you know about stars but you don’t know how to use them / you know about ropes but you don’t know how to move them / you know about dreams but you don’t know how to prove them / you don’t know which way you want the wind to blow / if you’re a boat without a shore I will try to be your sun / but I burn too bright or not enough / I will try to be your wind / fill your sails and bring you home again / you don’t know which way you want the wind to blow

cold light from distant stars shines through each excuse you are making / stars could never fall this far / below a thin moon our love was shaking / first light bleeds through the dark injecting warmth / ink is taking so long to leave a mark / below a thin moon our love was breaking / below a thin moon our love was breaking / your voice has changed / it says what you can’t say / headlights break through the dark / pushing down a broken highway / never made it to the bar / below a thin moon our love was breaking / below a thin moon our love was breaking / your voice has changed / it says what you can’t say / don’t try to explain / don’t sing my ears to sleep / I’m not listening la la la la la la la la la la / your voice has changed / it says what you can’t say

I work early / I work late / I come home and I complain / had a close call today / it almost all went away / I’m out of milk and beer / man on the subway looked at me weird / my days are stuck in high gear / it almost all disappeared / I know what I want but I don’t take it / I know what I want but I don’t take it / I don’t take it / I’ve got so many important things to do today / so many important things are gonna get in the way / they’re gonna get in the way / I’ve got one mouth to feed / one room to clean / one show I’ve just gotta see / had a close call today / it almost all went away

he said I’ll be your cowboy any day darlin / she rolled her eyes / wondered which was worse his pickup line or the fact that he even tried / she’s never had trouble getting the cap off the bottle / she don’t need a man / she’s got her own two hands / she’s been working all her life / calloused where she once was bruised / doesn’t wash her hands figures what’s the use when they’ll just get dirty again / she’s never had trouble getting the cap off the bottle / she don’t need a man / she’s got her own two hands / she doesn’t waste her time pining away / wasting away over someone worth nothing / no sob stories / no Ben & Jerry’s / she doesn’t need a man / but if she had a man / he’d make games unnecessary / she doesn’t need a man / but if she had a man / he’d still know how to play / she’s never had trouble getting the cap off the bottle / she don’t need a man / she’s got her own two hands

it rained and a little leaf is heading down the drain / sailing a dirty stream of water to the sidewalk grate / what could a leaf do but go with the flow of determined water and get carried away / chords ring through marrow / sound shot like an arrow into bone / I’m home / you play warm tones convince the cold to clear / like rays breaking through gray that’s been hanging on for way too long / All That Wrong disappears and I’m carried away / chords ring through marrow / sound shot like an arrow into bone / I’m home / play it again / play it again / blue plane slides safely into home like a stone skipped / I wait to go all in on a tin can jet / and fly high through white skies on heavy wings / with all of my heavy things / and somehow float in the air and get carried away / chords ring through marrow / sound shot like an arrow into bone / I’m home

Oh my darling / oh my love / gotta do what I gotta do / will you be here when I’m done / will you be here when I’m through / we’re in the trenches / lying low in the trenches / we’re stalemated / all I do is wait and wait / I just want to be with you / you just want to be with me too / but we don’t want to give up anything / we’re in the trenches / lying low in the trenches / we’re stalemated / all I do is wait and wait / we keep on running parallel / but those lines never touch / I’m growing some roots now / and you’re having fun / I just want to be with you / you just want to be with me too / but we don’t want to give up anything / we’re in the trenches / lying low in the trenches / we’re stalemated / all I do is wait and wait / wait and wait / oh my darling / oh my love / gotta do what I gotta do / will you be here when I’m done / will you be here when I’m through

I’m just a bud / barely budding / barely stretching my head above the dirt / easily stomped on / easily hurt / I’m a stone / top of the mountain / peeking down from the highest peak / waiting to roll / just try to move me / if you think of all the places your fingers could fall / isn’t it amazing that it turns into music at all / march where I want / beat my own drum / too bad my rhythm isn’t your cup of tea / I won’t be sad just to seem deep / I’m a string / five siblings / sitting tight and patiently waiting / come on and touch us / make us sing / if you think of all the places your fingers could fall / isn’t it amazing that it turns into music at all

Under a sunburned sky / on the sandpaper sand / we could hold this life / you be the ocean I’ll be the land / I saw you trace my tan lines with your water-colored eyes / my hair won’t dry / salt water wet / did you forget all of this / Chinese lanterns above my head / clothes tumble dry / the warmer side of the bed / don’t separate our jumbled life / warm laundry on your bare skin and a cool breeze blowing in / sleeping in / no regrets / did you forget all of this / curl my toes into the beach / roots digging for stability

Won’t these wheels move faster / if I got out and ran I’d make it quicker than this / low-lying land, push through flooded fields abandoned sheds / dirty backyards broken toys brokedown cars / whistle and rumble through forgotten towns / bend the air bend the ground / coast through cattail marshes / green blurs into brown overgrown gardens / dead dandelions coat these rolling hills like a seeded army / they look to the sky, even weeds get to fly /they’re just waiting / anticipating one gust of wind and then they fly / everything’s waiting waiting to fly / flock of blackbirds sitting in a dying tree / hanging on like dead leaves / pickup truck kicking up dust down a dirty dirt road / spark running to gunpowder / it’s going to explode / everything’s waiting / waiting to fly / flying in the falsetto of the whistling / cutting through mountains of ragged rock / these rails curl under my weight / under my burdens / they say you can never get away / I never listen to what they say / I’m going I’m going I’m gone

Gonna go to the grocery store / gonna buy some juicy fruit / gonna bring it back home and throw it at you / oh this is a side of me you haven’t ever seen / you didn’t think of what you’d be missing when you didn’t think of me / I’m just a man is no excuse / so many others do it so much better than you / maybe we’re not perfect but that’s no reason not to try / you messed up for the last time / this is a side of me you haven’t ever seen / you didn’t think of what you’d be missing when you didn’t think of me / gonna go to your closet now / gonna find your favorite shirt / and I’ll cut it all up / just to show you how much I hurt / this is a side of me you haven’t ever seen / you didn’t think of what you’d be missing when you didn’t think of me / gonna walk to the driveway now / over to your darling truck / gonna swing this baseball bat / and I’ll smash it all up / this is a side of me you haven’t ever seen / you didn’t think of what you’d be missing when you didn’t think of me

Every day I wake up and the sun fades your face from my eyes / I try to keep them shut but you still go no matter how tight I keep them closed / you still go / I keep them closed but you still go / every day I wake up with fingernail lines in my palms / I guess that’s where I hold you / tight in my fists all night long / I hold on tight but you’re still gone / hold on tight but you’re still gone / so I’m gonna dream this time away til I see you again / this world’s too heavy for my head to hold all alone / every day I wake up moves me one more day closer to you / the last breath of your face is the first thing I see when I come to / I’ll keep dreaming til I dream you home / I’ll dream you home / so I’m gonna dream this time away til I see you again / this world’s too heavy for my head to hold all alone / I’ll keep dreaming til I dream you home / I’ll dream you home / every day I wake up and the sun fades your face from my eyes / I try to keep them shut but you still go no matter how tight I keep them closed / you still go / I keep them closed and you won’t go

I’m on a morning train from your town / the roof is leaking on my head / my personal rain cloud / drop for every word I should’ve said / soaking in the same scene every stop along the way / typical goodbyes /you know the look on that one’s face / it’s all she can do to keep from ripping at the seams / holding tight to a loose string / hoping she won’t unravel before he leaves / he’ll look back and see puffy red eyes / you can cry another time / I’m on a morning train from your town / the roof is leaking on my head / my personal rain cloud / too many things left unsaid / I’ll be sitting here til sundown / why’d i have to leave / listening to the sad sound / as the train picks up speed / it’s all she can do to keep from ripping at the seams / holding tight to a loose string / hoping she won’t unravel before he leaves / he’ll look back and see puffy red eyes / you can cry another time / Mineola train / platform A / catch a face in the window pane / so many have felt this / doesn’t reduce it

Dancing with the bolts gone from her knees / a drunk girl in high heels / weebley wobbling but she won’t fall down / the night swirled tipsy around me like a drunk girl in high heels / twirling and giggling but I won’t fall down / I can’t tell if there’s something in the air / it’s like I painted a closet and those fumes got me laughing / or if it’s just you / your breath is 80 proof / and it’s all I can do to keep myself from drinking you in / dancing on banana peels / I’m a drunk girl in high heels / twirling and giggling but I won’t fall down / I want to wrap myself around you like a corkscrew oh I do / you traced the seams pockets of my jeans and I forgot to breathe / I can’t tell if there’s something in the air / it’s like I painted a closet and those fumes got me laughing / or if it’s just you / your breath is 80 proof / and it’s all I can do to keep myself from drinking you in / your kiss was laced with red wine / I can’t be sober around you even if I try

Sleep hasn’t come to see me lately / I lie alone in my bed waiting / sleep you haven’t come to see me lately / please come home and lay with me / kiss my eyelids / trace my cheek / turn off the noise from the street below my window / breathe night into me / kiss my eyelids trace my nose / tell me where you go / where you’ve been all these nights / sleep hasn’t come to see me lately / I lie alone in my bed waiting / sleep you haven’t come to see me lately / please come home and lay with me / erase these black tracks you left under my eyes as you were just running by / didn’t have the time to spend just one night / sleep hasn’t come to see me lately